Experience and Lesson...

It's been close to a year since I've last blogged. It's close to 3.20am in the morning now. Just ended a movie show (Angels & Demons) my cell members - Benjamin, Daniel, Titus, Pei En etc...

Honestly, I think that I am beginning to communicate more often with the cell members. I know I've not been talking much or even been friendly with most of the people as I always felt left out by the group. I've always found myself to be either alone OR that they are too occupied with their own "circle" of friends.

There were even times when I felt that the cell group is against me (which is not true as there were people like Andy, Joseph Teo, Benjamin who's been trying to chat up with me but I just ignored or even brushed them aside. Just wanted to be alone..)

Guess the rejections and past hurts from my previous experiences with other cell groups have really did more harm than good. I really am glad that I've left the youth cell group and proceeded on with the adult cell.

Something happened today.. Yes, he (Pastor Mike Connell) is back to Church to do some "spring cleaning". Although this time, I was not called up by him or even prophesied over by him. However, I felt as if it was that day, back in 2003, when I was called out (mistakenly) by him. (Because he was actually calling for the person next to me but in the end, I was also called out by Pastor Mike to be prayed over for.) Best of all, I still have the audio clip (proudly edited and sent to me by Davin).

Even though I was not being prayed for or even manifested, I felt kind of relieved! I feel as if all the burdens I've carried/ hurt/ grieves were taken off from me. I feel at peace with God. J

God is indeed good! I am glad that the past events happened to me. Else, I’d never be who I am. I am thankful to God that I am His Masterpiece and even if I am worried about my future/ career etc, it’s no longer a control which I can make. I will commit my future to Him. Of course, I’d not just sit down and wait for money to fall from the sky but I will surely look out for jobs but He is the One who will ultimately give me the favour to get the job.

I've come to a conclusion after all that has happened.. No matter what happens, it’s not a matter of how much money you make/ what position you are in or how important are you in your workplace. Of course God will never mess up your life or mine. He will want to us to be His Masterpiece! I've learnt one thing.. The most important thing in life is to be in the will of God and to trust Him with all I have. I know that God will NEVER let those who put their trust in Him, come to shame!